GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness

Wau lau eh.

2011-03-20T22:40:00.000-07:00

Wah lan eh. fuck this shit u know? lost my wallet. lost 3k. fuck this shit. hope my money can help someone. pls pls pls. if my money cannot help anyone. at least return me and i will go help someone with my money. fuck.

Pissed:
if some fuck ah beng took it and go enjoy. drink beer fuck girls.fuck it

if some fuck drug addicts go but drugs with this money. fuck it

if some ah beng take it go modify his car.fuck it

feeling better:
Some ah ma pick cardboard. go ahead and take it

some poor people, really in need in money, need to feed family. by all means.

some people need it for medication. go ahead and spend it all.

totally can take it:
some smart people take my money and donate it to japan. ALL RIGHT MAN!

Some smart people take my money and help others. GOOD!

SOME SMART PEOPLE TAKE MY WHOLE WALLET AND RETURN TO POLICE! totally can take it.

now what i can do i fuck myself, blame my fucking carelessness. i wish i punch myself in my own fucking face and say U R FUCKING STUPID.

Too much downs. come on man. GIVE ME SOME UPS! MORE UPS! no more downs! pls! pls!

this is really mind fucking me. plus. my fucking eye is totalled. come on. NO MORE DOWNs!

GOOD LUCK WILL NEVER FADE FROM NOW ONWARDS. GOOD LUCK WILL COME. GOOD HEALTH WILL GROW. GOOD WEALTH WILL INCREASE!!!!!!

GDLUCKNVFADEXXXGOODNESS!!

love
ap mom sher colin
jack sng nd
mint yuqing

love u all. GOOD LUCK WILL BEFALL ON TO ME AND ALL OF U!

yes. it has happened

2010-12-22T02:48:00.000-08:00

hi,
it has been a long time. i had been at home for farking four months. FOUR MONTHS! and i still cannot forgive myself and i cannot forget the incident. a farking metal piece flew so god damn hard and hit my eye. i had never felt so fucking miserable before. i am now partially blind in one eye. everything i see is not as beautiful as before. No one can understand my feeling. i really hope really hope my vision will come back. i really dun know why this thing happen on me? why? what did i do wrong? i cannot blame anyone but my foolishness and carelessness. Damn. i really hate it. ppl might tell me, u still got one eye what. u still look the same. but eyes are the windows to your soul. it will affect every single thing. i really dun know how to pick myself up from here.

i might have shitty job. i can take it. i might have a shitty hard life. i can take it. but my vision. i really regret for what has happened. really. i dunno how to be happy anymore. i love cars, gym, babes, but all these does not seem to interest me anymore. i really want to get over it. but i really can't. what the fuck is wrong exactly. anyway, i love u guys.

love
mom
sher
ap
jack
sys
nd

hohohohohohohohohoh

2008-07-20T06:29:00.000-07:00

haha.. hoho.. it's been a freaking long time.. haha blog? i dunno.. i guess i am really boring on my sunday off.. my only off day.. i am working for my papa now.. and yes. striving like mad.. worked for about 2 months already.. kinda tired everyday.. but i have no choice.. i am driving a lorry accompanied with my worker and my dad has another lorry.. if i quit.. he will be dead.. real dead.. leaving himself with two lorries.. and yes the pay sucks too.. i need more.. real more..

i have been offered even better job with better salary... but why i did not join??

PROS
no 1. being an employee u will be fired by the employer, so i rather be an employer
no2. i got no papers with official powerful words with issued by the govt. yes! certificate.
no3. business will be mine after all
no4. i dun have to strive to set up my own business..

CONS.
no1. very very strenuous and physically tired job
no2. no time to enjoy what i have earned
no3. no freedom to quit when and as i want.
no4. no time to go for further studies..

no sure.. how... now..
but at least i got a stable job.

speaking of stable.. it reminds me of one person. my good friend. ray
i dun know how or when should i tell u this.. but if u happen to come across my blog.. READ

i know u are an ambitious guy.. u are smart and intelligent but.. things have really gone bad.. change ur way of doing things.. change ur way of thinking.. i believe in no pain no gain.. there is no short cut to success.. dun get offended but get mature. u know what's going on.. u know what to do.. enuff.. anyway u and bros

i love.
mom.
ap.
sher.
jack.
sys.
nd.
ray.
love u all.

GDLUCK NV FADE AND STAY WITH ALL OF US!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jermaine

thanks

2008-01-26T10:13:00.000-08:00

hi it's been a long time since i updated.. reallllllllllllllly long.. looking at those pictures in my blog now really bring back memories!! now.. it's a crude world out there now.. really feeling stress up... IBO? DAD? PA? which one? focus which one? i really need help now.. but at least i am glad that there are choices.. i really feel tired.. really want to earn lots and lots of money! be financially free! how to? and who's willingly to help me? only myself! i miss those secondary school days.. last time. when ppl tell me that sec days are the best.. no stress nothing! but i am like.. wtf! must study! not stress enuff ar! but now.. i really know what it means!!!! really!!!!! i just hope i can be successful real successful!!!

I LOVE U
MOM
SHER
PANSY
ND
SYS
JACK
RAY
DAV
MENG CHOO
CARINA! HAHA
I REALLY MEANT IT!
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2007-08-20T00:40:00.000-07:00

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2007-08-20T00:13:00.000-07:00

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2007-08-04T12:21:00.000-07:00

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2007-07-30T05:36:00.000-07:00

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2007-06-06T09:45:00.000-07:00

Shermen is going in to army soon.. in like another few hours time.. feel kinda sad.. i know i have been through all these.. but u still feel kinda of sad when u not going see Ur own kin for quite some time.. i know he will be fine.. ha ha.. in fact he has been this through once.. now.. doing it another time.. really farking SCDF.. so difficult to take leave.. my encik told me that i MIGHT need to go back to the station.. i dun give a fark.. i won't go back until i see shermen off..

last week had a real great time with my best buddies.. we went to discussion.. i was dead drunk.. real drunk.. i puked like no one's business... and the next morning i had a freaking hard time with my gf.. i was farked.. like shit. real shit. hahah anyway.. thanks buddies.. AND THANK U LEE AI PING!!!!!!!! for fetching all of us home.. anyway she just got her licence!! and now my racing machine will be driven by her~~ and not to mention petrol~ erp~ modification fee~ HAVE TO SHARE TOO.. woo HOOO!! yeah.. haha just kidding.. she will drive under my supervision!!

Anyway,
I LOVE MOM
SHERMEN
LEE AI PING
JACKSON SIM
ANDY NG
SNG YENSERN
RAYMOND KOH

GDLUCKNVFADEXXXGOODNESS AKA JERMAINE

2007-02-12T01:41:00.000-08:00

Cars!! beautiful cars!!!

Nissan fairlady 350 Z

Toyota Trueno

AE86

Mazda Rx8

With handsome Boy

Mitsubishi Colt with I.C.E

In Car Entertainment

Subaru WRX

STI

SUBARU WRX

i love mom

i love sher

i love pansy

i love jack

i love ND

i love SYS

i love ray

i love CARS

Most of all i love myself

Love,

Jermaine foo aka GdLuckNvFade

GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness (Super Duper Massive Huge Power)

2007-02-05T20:10:00.000-08:00

It's BEEN a long long long long long long long long time ever since i blogged... hello and hi to everyone i am back.. I've been very very busy with my house.. yes! i moved to hougang... it's been 2 weeks already.. actually i prefer my old place in terms of accessibility but in terms of cleanliness i prefer hougang.. I'll upload pictures when i take pictures of my houses... at the moment i would like to update what ever i did for the past few months..

OK first good news.. i would like to congratulate SYS for passing his driving test and he got his licence!! WOOOooOWooooo yeah!!! I drink YOU DRIVE!!!!! we got a new driver!!!!

Next raymond got himself a new car~~~a CIVIC~~~~~~!!! WeeeWeeee~~!!!good news~~

His car and mine-----

cool uh...

i miss all u guys..

anyway that's all for now.. i'll blog more next time

i love mom

i love sher

i love pansy

i love sys

i love jack

i love ray

i love nd

i love myself

love,

jermaine aka GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness

GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness(Super Duper Super Power)

2006-09-29T07:56:00.000-07:00

I'm down with fever!!! shit. feeling sick really sucks. sucks. today is the 29th of september~

what's so special about 29th of september?? 2 years had passed~ my anniversary with my gf.

time flies. i dun remember being with her for 2 years. time really flies. the new fire fighters are coming in to station in another 1 week time.. hmm.. those who has read my previous entries should know what will happen to the new fire fighters.

hope there's a chinese entering into our rota. so that i dun have to buy food for my rota mates anymore.

i feel like going to malaysia. but i'm broke now. seriously broke. i had never been like that before. maybe too many events came up recently.

if i'm going to malaysia, i'm going to look for...

...bodykits for my car.

..headlights for my car.

...maybe a RC drift car.. hopefully it's cheaper there.

..nice looking clothes.

...electronic blow off valve.. which can make car sounds like a SUBARU!!

and many more~~

2 years~!!! happy 2 years... my dear...

You blow off one

i blow off one

That's all folks...

love u all

Love,

Jermaine aka GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness

GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness (Overwhelming power of the massive power)

2006-09-08T20:35:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time since i blogged.. yes actually i am quite pissed off by my buddy's attitude recently. i really have to say, his attitude sucks truly madly deeply.. haha.. but it's true. i hate it when someone dun answer calls PURPOSELY and sends a sms after that call, or when u call him to meet up with a few good buddies, he doesn't answer and found out that he's with his squad mates outside having a great time at 4am. what's this?? we treated him as a good friend. we appreciate him as a good friend and yet... what happen? we get this in return. we ask him to go drinking, he rejected. Going to devil's with squad mates, he accepted without hestitation. When we managed to BEG him to go drinking. he appeared with a fuk face. what's with him? i really dunno. nvm.

ok i'll post pics now!!!

yes i went east coast with my dear dear.

we rode a......... 2 person bike?

yes and this was the bike!!!

it wasn't very hard to ride.

except for if when one person dun pedal the other party cannot pedal.

from here a lesson learnt...

DUN BE SELFISH.

We rode to bedok jetty and had some photo taken~

it's was a great actually.

initially i din want to go..

but it turned out to be a great day~~

after all the riding~ we got tired and had a rest at the nearest bench...

Anyway... that's all folks.. love u miss u all....

Love,
Jermaine aka GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness

GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness(Huge Miracle Power Of The Power)

2006-08-27T10:16:00.000-07:00

Today is..... 27 of AUGUST 2006!!!! my 21st b-day.. as usual, i slept the whole day till 9pm.. i was on duty yesterday.. i was waken for dinner by my mum. ok.. i had a sumptuous dinner.
but i was very suprised and touched. shermen, gave me a really big surpise. he gave me alot of branded stuff.

this is what he gave me.

Oh my GOD...

he spent almost $500

A GUESS t shirt...

must have cost him alot

An ARMANI EXCHANGE t-shirt...

FCUK t-shirt

a CK perfume

that's not all.. he also gave me a POLO t shirt, a jeans from TOP SHOP.

i felt very heartache when he spent so much for me. actually i dun need such good brands.Even if u give me a t-shirt bought from Bugis i'll also be very happy. i really appreciate it. i am really happy that he did so much for me. i really wanna thank him.

and of course i'll make sure his 21st b-day he'll recieve as much too.

THANK YOU SHERMEN!!!!! THANK YOU!!!

Anyway, it's doesn't matter what u give me, i'll still be happy.

Love,

GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness AKA Jermaine

GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness (Huge massive power of the power)

2006-08-16T05:24:00.000-07:00

My birthday is coming~!!! but i'm not really excited...yet.. next week will be my birthday. i dunno whether to celebrate it on 19? or on the 27? coz on 26 i'll be having my duty. and that's a sat. i'll be free on 27. that's sun.

sun.... jackson and nd won't be ard.. coz they have to book in.. so how???? and where???

where should i celebrate~!!!

i really dunno.. haiz... everyone wants their 21st to be grand.. so what should i do?? ideas????? pls???

anyway, my gf bought me a phone~!!!!! n73!!!! oh my... she bought it for 800++++ but i still dun wanna use it yet coz.. i want to use it on my b-day!!!

anyway i've already transferred my photos to the computer.. but i'll upload slowly..

so for now enjoy~!!!

look at his briefs!.. damn big...

why did he do that?? coz he wants to warm up his balls.. hahahahahahah

i knew it.. there was something fishy..

if i was earlier... uh uh uh....

or maybe they had a fast game??

sharks fin~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah cheap and good...... at???

THAILAND

hmm.... yummy look...

one person one bowl.........

look at that face.... steam steam...

those were the days.....

anyway i'll upload more..

love,
jermaine aka GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness

GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness(Power of the maxmium Power)

2006-08-07T03:12:00.000-07:00

Days in station~ totally sucks.. to tell u the truth.. really sucks like hell. three months of hell in CDA yet when i am posted to station, i thought days will be much more better, BUT NO! I still HAVE to SUFFER. I have to put up with those MuthaFukers who have no fuking manners. Ok, not only me but let me tell u.. THEY ARE MuthaFUkers, u can see in my whole blog i haven mention any vulgarities yet, but i had enough and i am freaking pissed off. i have to buy lunch for whole 3 months, not mentioning if there is no new fire fighters after these 3 months, and i have to continue buying. i had enough of these shit. seriously there are fuking rude people there, really damn downright freaking rude, ok i dun want to mention his name, his race. there are 2 of them. real mutha fukers. what kind of fuking rule? new fire fighters have to buy food for 3 months, have to be spread with kiwi, have to listen to so called 'SENIORS', Boots have to be filled with bio solvent(liquidified soap) when U sleep too early. WHOLE 3 fuking months! NEW FIRE FIGHTERS, let me tell life in CDA is much more better than life in station. TRUST ME!!! u can sleep as early as ten. u will love water parades, u will rather stay in CDA and let DI(drill instructors) bully rather in station. CDA is really truly nothing. I just recently heard that my friend from central fire station just transferred to changi fire station. WHY?? coz his SO CALLED 'SENIORS' tried to shit on his friend, so he stopped them, but what happened?? he got beaten up! FAIR??? is this FAIR? and he reported police and got transferred to changi fire station. ok i admit there are good people in station but there are also Muthafukers. so far, i am still ok, no matter what, if they are going to cross my line. i am going to fight back. I am going to!!! dun fuking cross my line. ok there are also nice people around me. and MOSTLY chinese, i am not being racist, the ones bullying are... u should know. they even bully their own kind. there was once, my malay friend, new fire fighter, came to me and said that he wanted to run away from station and dun wan to come back. but i told him to endure. haiz.. fuk. the new fire fighters has been "kiwi" already. i am the last one, usually the last one is the most fuked up one, why am i the one?? coz they say i am damn cocky.. ok.. fine.. anyway after i telling all these, i feel so much better. ok, this message is for new fire fighter: Station is where your nightmare has just begin, throw ur pride, ur dignity.. almost everything. still one word from CDA till here.... ENDURE.. ok enough... finished venting my angers, now go to the happier part.

this is the new botak jackson sim.. HIS BIRTHDAY!! so happening!! haiz.. hate to say but have to.. we had dinner at fish and co, after that he came to my house and cut his ice cream cake. after cutting the cake, all went home, and this is his B-DAY

nice things: fish and co. and ice cream cake.

not-so-nice things: at fish and co. he din even bother to turn his head and talk to his GOOD FRIENDS. whole table only.. me, nd, ray, sys, colin, my mom had a great time talking to each other. why not i put it this way.. from the start of the dinner till the end. his head only faced his 'EX'. ok after that, he came to my house, he cutted his cake, and hid at a corner and talked to his GF. after that they went home. i dunno.. but to tell u the truth.. i feel that jackson is too crazy over his 'girlfriend'/'ex'.. which made him really changed alot.. seriously... i dunno.. but i just want to see u happy bro.. happy!!! with a smile.. anyway.. wish u all the best. enough of writing.. some how.. i feel life sucks at station with muthafukers.

Love,
GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness
AKA
Jermaine

GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness (Massive super duper power)

2006-07-23T00:51:00.000-07:00

Busy......BUSY.....bUsy!!! what friday i had.. the whole day was very busy... my duty was a real busy one.. in the morning i had a scenario drill at some big company at toa payoh, after the drill i had to go to CPF building near junction 8 and check whether the fire safety equipments is safe enough to use, after that i had to travel all the way in a pumper to PIE, because there's a complaint saying that there are stones and pebbles left behind by some truck and it's obstructing the traffic there.. after that when i come back from the check i had to do sentry duty till 5 AM!! in short... i din SLEEP!! life's like that.. and YES i promised to post pictures with my gf.. and here it goes.....

Tis is Pansy aka my gf

Look like china girl

i wasn't drinking man!!!! why am i like that??

i think i went to sentosa...

sun tanned...

i really din drink!!! what the...

red pig

Yeah it was damn hot.. so i took out my shirt.

~*-^Pan&Jer^-*~

Andy and me

damn..... look my eyes again.. why!!!???????!!!

yeah... those were the times... now we dun have the time to gather like this... nice pic???? now all of them are national slave... except for ray...

another nice pic..........

kiss me~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

me and potateo??? haha

kissing again?

hahaah jackson so shy... he's never been hugged before~~~~~~

what the............ sher and jackson???? oh my... i knew it....

handsome? true face of shermen foo.....

That's all.. more pics coming in... i love u all...

Love,

GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness aka Jermaine

GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness (Super Overwhelming Power)

2006-07-14T04:18:00.000-07:00

Today is monday~~ on saturday i had my duty at bishan fire station, it's kinda of eye opening for me. i had a fire call in the afternoon, i got really nervous. i din know what to do. i quickly grabbed my fire suit and jumped in to the fire engine, when we got to the fire site, the fire was already extinguished... wOhhhh... it was at toa payoh.. so we went back. i din get to sleep for 24 hrs i afraid i might miss a fire call. if we missed a fire call... we will get punish.. real seriously.. ok so i endure till almost 10 in the morning than.. i quickly rush back home and sleep. guess what time did i woke up??????? 8 in the evening!!!! really damn tired... anyway.. now i am going to upload some old pic..

tis is me!!! finally i did not close my eyes.

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technology is really very advance now... even tattooooooooooooo also can cut and paste... like real??

Nd and his bike, he looks a stick on the bike... oh my...

or was it his bike? i think he anyhow pushes one bike and took a photo and wanted to know how he look like when he get his bike??

anyway no difference... tis bike and his bike is identical..

or was it his bike??? i could not remember...

shit... acting cool in my car... really suck!!!! u might think that i am jealous! ok yes i am... nice pic la!!! nice pic la!! have to admit la!!!

Needless to say...... MY BRO.. shermen foo puching. he's hot! cute right? not attached yet!! come girls... come on.. dun be scared..

tis photo is taken during my b-day......... last 2 years? 3 years ago? why am i holding an ang pow? it's jackson who gave it to me
BESIDE ME!! haha the way jackson smile... hahahahahahahahahah anyway sorry jackson..

Sys and his sis..... look a like uh? they look like SiStaZ.. haha sorry sys.... really look like girl...

ok that's all folks... enough for now.. next page i'll gonna upload me and my gf photos.. yeah~~

Love,
jermaine foo aka GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness ( Maximum Power)

Love you all!!!!

2006-07-08T04:09:00.001-07:00

Hi, i am back.. yes i am so sorry.. i promise to blog last 4 weeks ago?!! ya i am kinda of busy.. actually i created a unfinished blog last 3 weeks ago but i couldn't complete it coz of time constraint.. and now.. yes i am a private now.. i finished my fire fighting course last thursday, i got my fire badge.. and now i am a professional fire fighter.. i am posted to bishan fire station yes.. so hmm.. tough time don't last time man do.. and i am going to blog all i want.. yes i am very very sad.. last week my grandpa has been admitted to SGH, but fortunately he is getting.. it really hurts me to see him this way. last he almost could not recongnise me.. but now.. he is back to normal but he is still a little confused.. anyway i hope he gets better and i wish him all the best. ok, i got really pissed off yesterday when i heard that my uncle, the doctor, brought a priest and baptist my grandpa, i really hate him and his wife to the core. they always take advantage of my grandpa when he is unconscious, this is the 2nd time. i can tell that my grandpa is very reluctant to become a christian, why? who always remembers the birthday of Godness Of Mercy? who always prepare for chinese Hungry Ghost Festival? who always goes to temple and pray respect to my auntie, great grandpa and grandma? it was him. and they are converting him into to a christian?! come on, i am damn freaking pissed and sunday they are going to bring a priest to my house and clear all the their so called "idols", which is statues of my god, what? this is too much, they really have gone too far, they really crossed the line, i respect their religion and now what are they doing? i respected them and that's it my respect has to stop, they are such disgrace. i can tell u that my grandpa does not even know he is a christian, i really want to have a talk with them, but my mom stopped me, she asked me to calm down, if i can i bring both of them to the hospital and ask my grandpa straight in front of them if he is willingly to be a christian. can't he have a choice of his own? why must they force him? it's not that i am bias against christians or their religion, i have no prejudice against christianity i can say, it's my uncle and his wife, the things that they do. nvm, forget that. anyway i am going to upload some old pictures which was taken during jackson's birthday 2 3 years ago..
jackson and me! i always have this problem, i always have my picture taken with my eyes closed.

jackson and my brother, who's that botak?????????????? oh my that's slim raymond!!!!!! now... haiz.. raymond is white and chubby.. haha

Grey:nd black:sys white long:me white short:raymond

than jackson and shermen(my bro)
look at me again!!!! eyes close... haiz...

Cutting cake!!!

acting slutty!!!

hahaha

nd and jackson... what??? dunno why they take those for...

yes that's nd.. always taking advantage of every girl he sees, that's the waiteress there at hi5.

haha obvious right? the girl tries to run away..

Nd: mai ka lim peh zhao~~!!!

thin raymond and fat jackson

the cap isn't off bro!!!!!

why!!!! my eyes!!!!why!!! .. it's the flash!!!! it's not me!!! ... no... it's not me lah.... !!!!!! it's the flash !!!!

original photo, raymond was never made slimmer....

ok that's all, i'll upload more tomorrow!!!!

Love,

GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness
AKA
Jermaine

GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness Super OverWhelming Power

GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness

2006-06-04T03:54:00.000-07:00

Sunday, June 04, 2006
Hello hi i'm back again. how are days like? Now i am serving the NS(national service) as a fire fighter in SCDF. All i could say is that life really sucks in NS. Days are really different now. I just dunno why problems keep arising. Not long ago, it was a sunday, and i could still remember that monday was a holiday and something bad happen. In the morning when i just came back from my girlfriends place, i recieved a call telling me that my Grandpa collapsed at the market and had fits. I got really anxious and i rushed down to check out what was happening and i saw him sitting on a chair and staring into blank space. i asked him what happened, he couldn't really answer me. all he said was "i'm ok, go home and rest can already", ok i thought he's really ok. so i helped him up and suddenly his legs got weak and fall a little so i helped him onto a chair and out of a sudden, his eyes rolled up and went in to a fits state, i got really scare and i din know what to do, all i did was hugged him and shout out "gong gong! gong gong!" and someone came with a spoon and inserted into his mouth to prevent him from biting his tougue. this moment i really felt like a sharp knife stabbed into my heart. it reallys hurts,really.. a few years ago he is still very heathly and fine. slowly he became senile and forgetful. i am really very sad to him like that. so after inserting the spoon in his mouth, he regained consicious and he wanted to go home and rest but i insisted on calling the ambulance which i did. He was sent to the hospital, my mother and i went. i went in to the A&E waiting room and waited, not long my uncle and relative came and he was outside making a big fuss cause he wasn't allowed to go in the waiting room as only one person is allowed to go in the room. so he flashed his doctor pass from gleneagles but he couldn't get in cause the hospital (tan tock seng) had to keep to their rules. i saw the commotion outside and quickly approached them, by that time my uncle became very angry and transferred my Grandpa to gleneagles. the doctor there checked my grandpa and said that some of his heart's artilitery has been blocked due to excessive smoking for years, so he has to go for an operation. but he is to weak for one so he has to build up his body resistance before he could do that. so he had to stay at my uncle house for now, so that they can observe his diet and the time for medication. and one thing that pissed me off alot is that my uncle and his wife tried to talk him into becoming a christian when he is in the hospital and he agreeded. he was a devoted buddhist and i am not really very convinced that he agreeded to it, so for weeks my uncle and his wife brought him to church and pray, but one day he suddenly claimed " i am not a christian and why should i go to the church." and now i get the story, my uncle and his wife took the chance when he was weak and in a sub concisous state and made him a christian. why did they have to do that??? why can't they let my Grandpa have a choice on his own. but he hasn't been bapist yet. but what i think is that all kind of religion is trying to convey a message to their followers that do what's right and try to pratice to do good deeds, no matter what religion u are in, if practice to do good deeds and u will be a better person and u feel happier too. just like there is once that when i was still studying in BMC, i was posted to Blastier Hill secondary school to take my o lvls, after my exams i was taking a bus home i saw a blind man trying to take a bus. but no one bother to help him. how could he know that his bus is coming and which number is it, so i took the initiative to ask him what bus is he going to board and guide him to the bus he want. i dun mind missing four buses of mine just to help in. but what i hate is that those who are also at the bus stop gave me a kind of strange look at me. why? is it wrong to help? but this does not stop me from helping. i also felt very happy and proud that i helped a blind man. so what i think that no matter what religion u are,if practice to do good deeds and u will be a better person and u feel happier too. just like there is once that when i was still studying in BMC, i was posted to Blastier Hill secondary school to take my o lvls, after my exams i was taking a bus home i saw a blind man trying to take a bus. but no one bother to help him. how could he know that his bus is coming and which number is it, so i took the initiative to ask him what bus is he going to board and guide him to the bus he want. i dun mind missing four buses of mine just to help him. but what i hate is that those who are also at the bus stop gave me a kind of strange look at me. why? is it wrong to help? but this does not stop me from helping. i also felt very happy and proud that i helped a blind man. ya so back to my Grandpa. i am really depressed of what happen to him.But all these are not all. life is so different when i went in to ns. my father and my mom quarrelled about allowance, and my dad was reluctant to give. talking about financial... another problem came along. my grandpa bills came, it was like almost 5k and it was sent to my uncle's house. of course, being a doctor must be filthy rich or should i emphasis on (specialist)? and also being the eldest among the siblings. who should foot the bill? him? i was expecting him but i was wrong. HE AND HIS WIFE took the bill out and place it on the table and wanted to share among my mother, another younger brother of his and him. i did not say it was wrong but my mother is holding a part time job, and earning like less than 2k? and did i mention she's a divorcee? they wanted to claim 1k plus from my mother but if she give 1k plus to them what is she going to eat? ok nvm about that, later they decided to get from my Grandpa's account. but my mom told them that Grandpa dun have that much money. they did not believe and insisted on checking my Grandpa's account. why do they have to do that? i am very pissed off with them. why? ok they live in a bunglow which at least cost about 2 to 3 million with 3 storeys and a basement. not to mention, they have 3 cars.2 BMWs and a 7 seater. a small private garden, a personal ktv room. AND they cannot afford??? but whereas they have to claim from my mother who lives in a HDB and trying her best to support her 2 kids and who also a divorcee. ok nvm. worst of all, they always putting up a very very false front. always being so nice, so helpful, always going to church and do voluntary work. and always showing off to us that her church has famous people with high reputation. what the use? ok going to church, doing voluntary work is good but what is the use when back home u are treating your family members this way? i just dun understand. stress keep coming to me what i can do? i can only come out on weekends and that really sucks. in the camp is really stressful enough for me and now there are more stress coming in. nvm. all i have to do is to endure another month or so. cause by then i'll be either doing shift work or 8 to 5, then i'll have more time to settle things. and even my car is also giving me problems for past 2 months, i have been visting the workplace so frequent than even the mechanic has to ask me what's the problem again. nvm now i placed my car at the workshop to have everything fixed. anyway today is sunday, and it sucks, i have to go back to camp being tortured again. people might think that SCDF is more relaxing than ARMY, but they din know that there is a course named FFC(fire fighter course) and it is definately much more tougher than army. there is no welfare given at all. when u are in the army, your parents can complain and the officers over there will make amends and make training much more easier. but as for fire fighter, there is no room for comments and complains, they only accept compliments. we have to wear thick fire resistant protection which is damn suffocating and hot. nvm. anyway ENDURANCE is the word. life still has to go on. every fall back is a gaining experiece and failure is a part of success. anyway i'll talk about my friends. 2 of my good friends will be a national slave soon. nd and jackson both will be serving ns, one on the 9th and one on the 13th of june. jackson will be in the police force, oh my.. i got a police friend! haha, i am not scare of ah beng anymore. and as for nd, i am abit worried for him cause i am afraid he might not take it. he kind of weak on both phycial and mental. anyway nd.. all i have to say is to endure!!! take care both of u~ now i am left with 4 weeks to go~~~ i have already endured 8 weeks, actually when i think back, time really flies. for all these times i really have to thank my mom and my gf. i have to thank my mother for putting lots and lots of effort. she always drive me back and forth from camp and also that when she's back from work and do household chores. i think that it's really very tough for her. thank you mom. next is my gf, thank u for keeping me accompany no matter when i am in or out of camp. thank u for talking to me when i am in camp, thank u for accompanying me for a movie on every saturdays. love mom and u so much. actually this my second blog web i dunno why i cannot access into the first one. but anyway i guess i have to stop here cause ir's already 6 plus, i have to prepare and go back to camp. i'll continue next week and most probably i'll upload some pictures. i love mom sher nd jack ray sys and most of all my dear.

Love,
GdLuckNvFadeXXXGoodness aka jer

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